The Truth of Imposter Syndrome

I want to be transparent with my absence of CAGGS. I’ve always found writing as an outlet, so I hope my transparency helps anyone else struggling. Imposter Syndrome echoes a feeling of self-doubt & undeserved success. The root can be several factors related to self-worth & value…two concepts I’ve had difficulty seeing within myself.

We all have doubts from time to time regarding ourselves & that’s okay. Imposter Syndrome transforms those occasional doubts to a constant battle of ‘am I good enough’ or ‘am I capable’ or ‘am I worth it,’ which is not okay. Imposter Syndrome is a slippery slope that can easily prevent growth, success, & happiness within yourself. I’ve been plagued by these thoughts & feelings that've resulted in my failure to continue my passions through CAGGS.

How did this start? Well, I began struggling once being told I wouldn’t come first by my true love. I felt a switch in my brain go ‘I am valuable’ to ‘I am not worthy’ based on only a few words. I completely lost my sense of self. I began writing CAGGS’ Makeup 101 E-Book in the meantime to justify my inability to cope with my self-doubt & value. ‘Will I ever be enough’ played in my mind on a daily basis. I finished the E-Book expecting to overcome these thoughts, but I was too far gone. Imposter Syndrome took hold of my beloved CAGGS.

CAGGS was my safe space before Imposter Syndrome took place. I felt pride with every article & post. I felt faith in CAGGS becoming something bigger & better than I could ever imagine. I felt successful & accomplished with only reaching one person because that meant I was making an impact. All that faded as Imposter Syndrome took over. I felt every article & post would never be enough to succeed…I felt CAGGS was a failure.

I realized the only way to combat Imposter Syndrome is taking the first step in showing up for myself because I am enough & worthy of all great things. I may have fallen, but this is my way of getting back up. This is my way of proving I can do anything I put my mind to. To anyone else struggling with Imposter Syndrome, understand you are enough.  To anyone else struggling with Imposter Syndrome, you’re not alone. The journey to fulfillment starts here 🤍